confused and exhausted

In this moment I don't feel that great. I mean it feels like the whole world around me is rotating and I just stand still in the middle and can't do anything. I have to see so many people before I leave this country for a year. And they all just have time for me on monday, which means tomorrow. It feels horrible, because I want to see them all, but I'm completely exhausted. Also I want to visit my granma in the hospital (the other granma) but there are so may feelings in my mind, that I just can't control, once I could but that was (it seems so to me) long time ago. Could please anyone help me with this?- No I have to do this on my own, like always in the coming year, when I have a problem or miss anyone, I have to handle everything on my own. Yeah that's about growing up, huh?